Oh my god. I don't normally use that phrase, I prefer a good holey shit or other words you're still not allowed to say on network television. But wow, this book is probably the most powerful, amazing, awesome, just wow books I have read. So amazing that apparently, my vocabulary goes right out the window.
The story told is one of a teenage girl, Tessa by name, who is a little bit different from normal teenagers. She has leukemia. And she's given up treatment and has decided to put a list together with the help of her best friend of ten things she wants to do before she dies. Now this isn't a list like Disney World and meeting Brad Pitt. Make a Wish Foundation probably wouldn't help with it. Number one is sex. Drugs follows shortly thereafter.
Tessa's father quit his job to take care of her and her estranged mother took about a year to come back after she was diagnosed. Her little brother remains a powerful character as he attempts to go about his normal life while still being a loving brother. The characters are truly real.
Tessa knows she will die, and soon. And she chooses to enjoy the rest of her life, even though it may hurt the others around her. She is selfish, mean, caring, loving, and scared. She is a character I would expect to meet randomly because of how real she is created.
We see the rest of our lives in years, and she, though young, sees it in months. Her relationships are true and difficult. Her fear doesn't disappear, she isn't brave, she isn't perfect. She steals her father's car even though she lacks a license, and does shrooms out in the middle of nowhere. Just because. Perfect? No. Real? Yes.
I apologize if I repeat myself (meh, not really sorry, I'm hungry and not thinking all that clearly), but this book deserves repeating. I'm not ashamed to admit, I read it twice, and cried both times. I expect to read it several more times and cry each and every time.
Her death, no spoilers here, she gave up treatment and this isn't a fantastical book of random miracles, is amazingly written. The sentences are fragments, the paragraphs spaced, the chapters short, and the thinking not coherent. It makes it even more real. Her fantasies mix with reality as she dies, after days, weeks, we don't know.
I could go on and on about this book because I will mark it as one of my all-time favorites. This isn't adolescent literature, this is pure literature. A book that deserves both young and old eyes because a character in a book, is so real, so vivid, teaches us all about life and death.
This isn't five out of five, it is beyond that. I dare you to read it. Until the next book, dear readers.